Wednesday, May 20, 2009

Totally fell off the blog wagon

but not the weight loss wagon. I've been really working hard. It's slow going, but I'm down 10 lbs since I started this blog. I'd ideally like to lose 15 more lbs, but I'm happy with my progress. Still reference Dr. Beck's book although I can't say I'm doing the program. So much has been happening lately and my life has been a tad stressful so I'm just happy that I haven't resorted to stress eating. That's a huge accomplishment for me. I belong to a SparksTeam on Sparkspeople and we're doing a 12 week challenge. I think we've got about 5 more weeks and it's been really great. I also bought a swimsuit. It wasn't in the size I was hoping I'd be by the summer, but it's getting pretty close and there's always next summer. All in all I feel like I'm moving in the right direction and I'm proud of myself.

Thursday, March 5, 2009

Catching up

Week has been crazy with snow and kids off schedule. Just wanted to say that I'm down 4 more lbs and feeling like I could reach goal, least be close by summer. Doing much better with the carbs and of course the sugar. It's hard, but necessary. Ah well, keep on, keeping on.

Wednesday, February 25, 2009

Get Real Challenge

So, I've said for a month that at the beginning of Lent I would stop snacking and the other vices that are keeping me from my goal. is Ash Wednesday. For the next forty days I will not have sweets. I will work my program to it's fullest. I can do this!
Progress thus far has been slow but steady, I'm pleased that I've continued to lose and have identified reasons why my progress has been slow from time to time. I've continued to read the Dr. Beck book, rereading some areas that I struggle with again and again, but the bottom line of the whole thing is plan, document and stay focused on your ultimate goal. That's pretty much what she tells you. You need to plan for your eating and exercising, check, check. You need to document what you eat truthfully by keeping a food journal, check. And you need to not let negative thoughts and actions derail you from your goals, check. So...wish me luck, here I go. Sugar free me!

Saturday, February 14, 2009

Slacker Posting

I don't mean I haven't been working my program...I mean I haven't been posting. I lost 2.5 lbs this week...but that just brought me back to where I was before my monthly visitor, so I guess it was all fluid. I have noticed that my comfy jeans are getting a bit baggier so I will definitely be moving solidly into the next size down...woo hoo, just one size until I reach my goal size. I just wish that number on the scale were moving the way I want. Ash Wednesday, or as I like to think of it as doomsday, lol is coming up and I'm giving up my vices. The white stuff has to go, flour, simple carbs, sugar. I hope to see a big difference in my progress by making these changes and if I can do it for 40 days...well, I should be able to do it forever, right?

Friday, February 6, 2009

Day off

I'm not feeling the exercise thing today. I'm sort of tired and it's cold outside so I don't feel motivated. I think I'll just stay home and clean (that's exercise, right?) and maybe if I feel like it this afternoon I'll do one of my exercise dvds. I think it's important to take a break to recharge from time to time. I'm realizing that it doesn't have to be all or none. I can do little things that make a difference in my overall health.
Glad to say that I've eaten less sugar this week thus far. I know that my cravings for it will diminish if I avoid it so that's what I'm trying to do.

Monday, February 2, 2009


That old demon has been surfacing recently and I'm really struggling. I've even picked up the OA book "Twelve Steps and Twelve Traditions" and have been reading it. I do feel that my relationship with food at times could be classified as an addiction. It's hard when you're a food addict, because unlike other addiction you still do have to figure out a way to have it in your life. The way you have abstinence when you're a food addict is by not using food in a maladaptive way. Easier said than done. But, I'm taking one day at a time and I'm truly trying. I wish that obtaining a certain number on the scale wasn't an important measure of health and success. I mean if you don't have that number you're deemed unhealthy...or at least less healthy. It's frustrating when I know how hard I've worked. I'm not perfect by any stretch...but I have worked very, very hard.
My weigh in this week was a bust. I gained. Maybe it's water since my friend is visiting me right now...or maybe it's all the snacking I did in the last week. Either way, the scale did not give me the number I was hoping for.
Ah well...tomorrow's another day, right.

Tuesday, January 27, 2009

Others ways to measure success

AKA Pick me ups. I was feeling a bit defeated because I hadn't done very well with my eating last week. I blame it on being premenstrual, lol. Nonetheless I have recognized that my body has changed. So I tried on 3 pairs of paints that didn't use to fit me and they fit! WooHoo! I've moved down a size. I'm only one size from the size I want to be regardless of what the scale shows. If I can obtain that size I'll be thrilled. I really should take my measurements with a tape measure so during the times when the scale isn't moving I can still see some progress.

Monday, January 26, 2009

Paying the price

Well, as I mentioned I had some struggles last week and at my weigh in this morning I paid the price for my spotty commitment. I'm a bit disappointed that I haven't done too well this past week. In examining the reasons why that might be, I have to be honest and say that my diet is the culprit. I am a carboholic big time. I love sweets and especially anything chocolate. I can't seem to avoid them either...well I guess I can, but for some reason I don't. Alright, enough negativity, here are the things I've been doing right, I've been drinking more water although not quite the eight glasses a day I'm shooting for. I've been tracking my foods, including all the junk too. I've been working out consistently, even working out at home when I couldn't make it to the gym...which is huge for me, because I usually find some excuse not to do it if I can't go to the gym. I've also increased my work out times to 75mins/day and added some weight training on two other days of the week so that I'm doing strength training 2-3 times/week. So, this week, no junk! Also I need to really work on taking five minutes a night to plan my meals and day. That's one of the Dr. Beck strategies. I do think that's important too, so I will work on that this week. I have a plan.

Thursday, January 22, 2009

Not such a good day.

I don't really feel stressed or particularly emotional in any way, but I've been snacking out today. I'm not sure why either. I've had Chinese food, pizza, ice cream and a couple of cookies. I did work out this morning and burn 900 calories, so maybe that's triggered my hunger...but I don't even think I'm all that hungry. I guess this is what is meant by dusting yourself off and getting back on the horse.'s the snacking that I really struggle with more than anything...the sweets. I probably just need to go cold turkey and give up sweets the way I did when I gave up drinking sodas. That's what I will do...starting now.

Tuesday, January 20, 2009

Weighin and Pitfalls

After having been in at a plateau for a couple month, I think I've broken through since this was the second week to post a loss...however small. I'd like to loss 20 more pounds,I think I can's just going to take a lot of hard work and commitment. Although it's easy to get discouraged, part of me is glad that I'm having to work hard and make real changes to achieve my goal weight. I'm very hopeful that the changes I'm making are real lifestyle changes. It's hard...I'm not going to lie, but I workout and I try and eat the best I can. Sometime I do great, sometimes I don't, but I keep on going...just like anyone else. I've started a running class and have been running on the treadmill and I'm proud of what my body can do. I still have to work on the sweets (I plan to really give them up for Lent). The biggest challenge I'm having is managing myself in environments outside my home, such as work. Work can be a trap because I'm there for so long and there are periods of stress and boredom. Sometimes it's hard to find healthy options, plus people bring in things that are yummy, but not good for you. I have to get better about managing the pitfalls. I'm really working on that though. Still plugging along at the Dr. Beck book. I find the response cards are really helpful. They seem silly, but actually help with the negative self talk. All in all...things are moving in the right direction.

Tuesday, January 13, 2009

Slow steady...

Had my weekly weighin, didn't loss but a couple ounces, that's ok though. I'm happy that I'm mentally working really hard and I can say doing much better about the snacking. I've really been asking myself "Are you hungry?" each time I want to reach for something. The majority of the time when I realize I'm not, I don't get the snack. I've also found an online buddy to talk about our struggles, we're both doing the Dr. Beck book and someone at the gym to workout with (although that wasn't as much of an issue).
Someone on the daily plate where I keep my food journal posted a really cool site.
I think it has some great information.
All in all things are going pretty good. Took my second running class. Can I just say that I don't know that I'll ever dig running, especially outside...but it does give you a workout. Tomorrow is an off day as I'm going to a workshop for work. I'm kind of excited not to have to workout, is that bad?

Friday, January 9, 2009

Hunger, desire or craving?

Currently I'm working on learning to tell the difference between whether or not I'm hungry, having a craving or just have a desire. This is really key for someone like me who is an emotional eater and uses food maladaptively. Today I really tried to pay attention and the interesting thing was I'm very rarely hungry. But, I also have a strong desire to eat certain foods. For example my kids asked to go to the golden arches for lunch today. Now, to me there aren't many things on earth that taste better than hot mcdonald's french fries. Well, as I was driving up I did a check, "Am I hungry?" No, I wasn't...but the smell, I was so tempted to order fries. I didn't though, because I knew it was just a desire. I will need to continue to work on mastering the skill to recognize these because I've confused them many times in the past. Once I learn to really recognize these, then the next step is learning to tolerate hunger and cravings.

Tuesday, January 6, 2009

I ran!

I did it...even though it was cold and raining pretty constantly I got out there and tried to run...with a lot of walking going on, we went out for about 40 mins and then I came inside and ran on the treadmill for 20 more. Gosh, running on the treadmill is sooooo much easier than running outside. Anyways, I did it!!! I'm going to plan to run on Thursday too. Oh and I even went to the thrift store and got a fleece pullover to be able to layer on top of my t-shirt. So...I've been rethinking my workout schedule for January. I've wanted to be able to work out 7 days a week...but with my work schedule that's just not feasible so what I think I will do is on Mondays and Fridays I will just do longer workouts. I was thinking something like this.
Monday- Kickboxing or Spin Class & Swimming/Running or weights for a total of 90 minutes.
Tuesday- Running (or Spin Class)
Wednesday- Strength training at home (wii fit or a tape)
Thursday- Running (or Spin Class)
Friday- Muscle Conditioning class & 30 minutes on treadmill or stationary bike for a total of 90 minutes.
We'll see how it goes, that will bring me up to essentially working out 6 days/week in terms of 1hr/day. I'm happy with that. It's not much more really than I've been doing for the last 8 months, but since I want to push to my goal I need to make some changes. Like Bob Greene says I either need to go further or go faster. I don't know that I'll ever be very fast...but I can go further.

Monday, January 5, 2009

Weekly Weighin

I always weigh in on Mondays. And since it is Monday...I weighed in and I was down 4.6lbs. I'm sure some was water, but I feel like the journaling is really helping me stay on track. Oh and I haven't had any fastfood since I said I wouldn't. I actually don't miss it. Well...not a lot at least. Next, I work on getting off the desserts. I do love a good dessert and while I will still eat them occasionally, let's just say the occasions won't be so frequently, lol. I found a cool site to help determine what my calorie range should be to lose or maintain. It did say that I should be eating around 2400 calories/day for maintenance, but since I want to lose...I'll eat less. I think I need to cut 500 calories/day to lose a pound a week, so that would mean 1900 calories, right? Also I plan to change up my workouts a bit. Tomorrows the big day. I will start the running class. I didn't even take the wimpy way out and sign up for a backup spin class, I'll have no option since the classes always fill up, I'll have to run.
Oh and I've been doing my Dr. Beck.
That's all for now.

Friday, January 2, 2009

Run, Run, as fast as you can,

I'm really excited about the opportunity to change up my workout routine. I belong to the local YMCA and I really like it. The new schedule just came out and they are starting a running class. It seems like you wouldn't need a class...but I do. I know that I won't do it regularly unless I commit to taking the class. It will meet twice a week and I hope to work up to running three times a week by the Spring. I've read that running is a great way to get a total workout and really help meet those fitness goals. So..I'm super excited. Tuesday will be the first class. I'm giving up my normal spinning class to go and run. I'll let you know how it goes.

Thursday, January 1, 2009

Is Wii fit real exercise?

I don't really think the wii fit will ever replace going to gym for me...but it is fun I must say and some of the exercise are hard and challenging. I think the point is that it gets you moving instead of sitting on the couch and that's awesome. Yesterday was a pretty good day. I had to work, but unlike usual I avoided constant snacking and got in a good bit of water. I also made sure to do my food journal. I'm really trying to stay atuned to my triggers.